我一定能的！！一定要改！！！！

母亲节快乐。。。
妈咪。。我爱你。。
其实。。。家人。。真地对我很重要。。
虽然。。。我一直做些事情。。来伤害你们。。我真的感到抱歉。。
真地。。

再多一个星期。。。我将要离开。。这家。。离开。。。我熟悉的一切。。。
而到。。一个陌生到地方生活。。
真地想到就。。心酸酸的。。。
我舍不得。。最舍不得是我的爸爸妈咪。。

不管怎样。。
我不会让你们担心我。。
我会学习长大。。会想了。。不让你们操心。。。
对不起。。
我爱你们。。永远。。

*其实。。。觉得自己真的变了很多。。很多。。
变得很好玩。。
变得叛逆。。
变得。。真的太多了。。
为什么我的心总是不能定。。为什么！！！
就连下星期。。要去读书。。我自己都想象不到。。。那些画面。。。在那边将会是怎样！！
我不知道。。。
肯定不能比在这里幸福。。

我要什么。。我的家人会满足我。。
但是。。为什么。。我还这样叛逆。。
我错了。。
此刻。。我真的很想便会之前的我。。
我能吗？？？
很希望我能做到。。。
也有心。。去好好走完我上大学的路程。。
完成一切。。

我不想半途而废。。
我不想让我的家人担心我！！
我要变乖。。变会想。。
希望。。我真的能做到。。
好好读书。。。
好好在那边。。

希望这次。。我是真的有心读书了。
在哪方面都好。。。心会定了。。

这一星期。。
我要好好陪伴我的家人。。
少出去了。。

我真的要改！！！
我要改掉一切！！

去k。l。。开始我新的生活。。
新的一切。。
我会好好做人了。。
降到一定要做到！！孙绿珊。。你一定能的。。
好好读书！！！！！！！！

wait me...my new life

突然心血来潮。。update blog。。。
最近真的发生很多事情。。。
很多我自己都意想不到的是事情。。。

虽然。。。发生了。也解决了。
我抱歉。。因为伤害了‘他’
但是。。我相信。。这也是。。最快让‘他’忘记我的办法。。
我不会忘记‘他’

希望。。‘他’会过得很好。。
我知道‘他’现在很讨厌我。。。
对不起。。

‘他’delete我在‘他’facebook frenlist的那刻。。
其实。。。我很down。。。
也不懂为什么。。

还是别想了。
回忆。。。是最美的。
真地祝福‘他’

最近。。。我一直参我的姐妹。。。雪琳。。lance出去。
想到即将要离开。。as。。。其实。。真的很不开心。。
我想念。。我的家人。。

我知道。。我应该多陪伴他们。。
我会的。。
我会尽量。。。多陪他们。。
因为。。我知道。。。我很爱。。。我的家人。。。

我的朋友。。
我去了读书后。。。就不可能。。。在像现在。。自由自在。。
我要学独立。。
要好好读书。。
不出夜街。。

一切。。都会改变。。
在外读书的生活。。。我会慢慢适应。。
也会接受。。

我真的想好好读书。。为了我的未来。。
我真的要清醒。。
路是我选的。。。我会坚持。。也希望我可以。。

感情世界。。真的很复杂。。
发现。。。最近。。都变得很复杂。。。
喜欢上一个。。不应该喜欢的人。。
是我活该。。。还是什么呢。。。

唉。。
当感觉要来时。。。谁都阻挡不料
‘他’。。我不敢爱。。因为。。。是没有结果。。受伤的还是我。。
有时。。我真的猜不透他。。
不懂他受否真的爱我。。

我开始矛盾。。

或许一切顺其自然吧。。

下一秒。。会发生什么事情。。。我自己也不知道。。
只好。。珍惜现在的一切。。

我爱你们。。。

14th of may..going kl soon...
wait me..k.l...my new life..<3

update ^^

I GONNA CRAZY!!!

HOPE TO LEAVE HERE AS FAST AS I CN..

BT ...I 'SHE BU DE' MY FAMILY N MY FRENZ....T.T

10TH OF MAY...

I WIL GO K.L ...START MY NEW LIFE THER..
CNT IMAGINE....HW MY LIFE AT THER...

GOD...PLZ BLESS ME ALL THE BEST...^^

MY MIND WAS AWAKE NOW..
i knw...wat should i do n wat i cant do...
its realy a big trouble to me...
if i continue it..

stop everthing...........

love r nt everything....

i miss sum 1...sorry i hurting he..bt its gud 4 him..
I'M BAD GAL..T.T...
haiz..

MY FAMILY & MY FRENZ R THE BEST...
AT LEAST...WONT GET HURT....^^
LOVE..<3

2MR IS GOING LANGKAWI V MY BLACK TEENAGERES CLUB SISTA..
LOVE U GUYS OWAYS..
I WILL ENJOY....^^

GOD BLESS US...
GOOD LUCK TO ALL OF US..
MUACKS.....

bad day

tdy was a bad day 4 me..
y should be hapen on me!!y!!!

haiz..
ntg cn say ...
over..frenz over.....

haiz...

watever...


haiz..when i nid u ...bt u nt beside me....i miss u right now!!babe...
plz stay beside me..
i nid u !!!

cnt wait the day v meet d!!!

i gonna CRAZY!!!

i love u ...

i love u ...

BABE....I LOVE U ...
<3

this few day in penang...i realy happy..becos..of u ...
ntg cn explain...~
hw abt u ?^^

tdy gonna go bk my homwtown d....
although i am sad....becos...our chance of meet wil less more..bt..
i wil promise tat wat u told me....

i oso promise to myself...

**i wil guai guai d...i dun wan go pou d....is time to keep my mood to study...prepare 4 college life...^^**

hope i cn do it....
hehe~...

**mis u so much now**

complicated

tdy ..i was happy..
becos....receive ur msg....

hehe

bt...i realy duno wat ur thinking.
i lazy guess...

hw ur feeling to me...
i duno..

i lazy guess..

dun wan get hurt anymore..

so i choose....
dun think so much...

**complicated**

haiz........

god plying me!!!!haiz..........

shun qi zi ran ba~

haha...2mr is my birthday after 12am...
wakka..
damn happy..^^

haiz..wat ur thinking babe....

haiz...
i realy duno wat u thinking..
wat u doin now!!!!

haiz..
dun let me guess anymore cn??

i wil tired....

u say u love me..
bt i cant c wher ur love.....after tat word...
nw v seldom contact..i oso duno y v wil becum like this...u cn tel me??
act wat hapen to u ????
damn sad act..

my heart r broke...

i nt dare msg u..nt dare find u now..
u knw.....
becos...i dun wan disturb u..
scare u wil more angry me...

i duno y..

my brain now..full of question markh..

haiz...

jz want to say...
act...
i love u too...bt its like nt important to u ..
i stil waiting ur msg..

haiz..4get it..

*guy r nt everything....sista is 4ever <3*

i dun wan get hurt anymore!!!!

my new life coming soon~

my birthday is coming soon..

i'm so excited ..

this year 18years old ...birthday...

duno who wil celebrate v me...who wil invite me hang out..
who wil take dinner & lunch & supper v me....

i stil waiting....hahhaa...

this year my birthday....without a person....
act...feel abit sad....
last 2 year .....he celebrate v me...
bt this year ..haiz...........let it ...becum pastence

hope he cn live happy without me....

I ENJOY MY SINGLE LIFE NOW...^^

finally...
i make a rite decision...
CONTINUE STUDY...

i wil take mass com course...at k.l...SEGI UNIVERSITI COLLEGE..

altot..i am nt gud in study..

bt i wil try...
i realy wil try my best.....

NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW...

may...
i wil go ther d....i realy .....feel sad..
i leave my hometown soon....
i knw the feeling now....
T.T

now havent go yt...
i already ...miss here everything...
T.T

miss my frenz..miss in as life...miss..everything..
expecialy...is...
MY FAMILY...

I WIL MISS MY MUM...MISS MY DAD...

I CANT PUT DOWN...HERE..EVERYTHING...

bt i knw...i nid grow up...
i should be strong....

i must handle ....everything by myself..

i trust i cn...

gambateh....wish myself good luck ....



**nw me n joue at d5 again^^hiak hiak **

elvy back

finally..i got home ...

i am bk...

feel warm when i in my sweetz home...

expecially..my bed..i miss so much...

important is i cn slip well..


I WAS LOST MY HP...MY DEAR ..SONY C903...

ALL FRENZ CONTACT LIST HAS GONE...

CONTACT ME....
MY FRENZ....& TEL ME WHO R U ...

I STIL USE SAME NUMBER..
=)

bad news..my dad say ....dun wan buy new hp 4 me anymore..
lol...

accept...

haiz...i vyvy confusing now...
i duno...wat should i do now..
MASS COM OR BEAUTICIAN..?????

COLLEGE LIFE...ITS FUN..
BT..I CN HANDLE IT????I CN HANDLE WHEN EXAM??
I SCARE...I NT DARE TO TRY...

I DUN WAN WASTE MY MUM MONEY...

FRENZ TEL ME..
NEVER TRY NEVER KNOW..

I SHOULD TRY...
I KNW!!!

COLLEGE..I M COMING!!!

*
i feel so sorry to my mum n dad...
so sorry..they treat me vyvy gud..wat 4 i owayz blame them..
y...
i am childish!!i should nt treat them like tat..
wat they do 4 me...jz 4 my own gud..
i knw..

SORRY...DADDY & MUMMY..I LOVE U ...

i wan becum gud gal...less outing v frenz..
i wil try...

i wil try dun let u guys dissapointed to me again..
T.T
*


(u're special to me...feeling gud..)

trip in k.l....^^(alone)

1st day in k.l....

i went on 11am bus...

k..

1st ..my dear sent me to bus station...

then...inside the bus.jz hav 4 person..

include me.

swtz....

i was nervous...& scared...

becos...tat bus driver likeshit....

dangerous driving...

fine...

ntg do in bus..

i on9 in bus....used my broadband..

bt tat line was shit....

**lag**

make me crazy..

then..

jz cn listen song....

reached k.l already 6 pm...

my dear venju pick me up...

venju i love u..& thx u ...

then...k.l serious jam...

i felt sory to her mum...

make trouble to her...

her mum bring us take dinner..

becos i was vyvy hungry ...T.T

ate 'cha keoy toew' & 'lok lok'

then go bk venju house..

take a bath...

then...she pick me go sunway pyramid meet my sis josee..

becos i stayed her house this few days...

summore...meet our fren...

billy chen..

this is a 1st time i meet him.

altot i nt vy knw him...

muahaha.

he is josee frenz..

**take sum pic at venju house**

**v my sis josee**

** go ate 'ho kian cha & alot of thing v josee& billly**

then ...v jiu go bk josee house d..

i stayed v my sis jose..=)

2nd day...

waked up on 10 sumthing .

gosh..

tired =(

wake up ..then bath...

12pm..go out..

josee fetcted me...

v went to josee college...

segi college...

erm...

damn nice ther...

i hope i cn enjoy college life..if gt chance..^^

then...wait josee register...

i oso ask abt mass com course...

erm..

act..i gt interested abt this course..

bt..

duno y...

i stil confuse..

i dun wan waste my mum money...

..

duno should i continue study ..or go academy learn beauty...

T.T

help...

CONFUSE...

after josee register...

billy pick us to visited segi college...then..

bring us to sunway pyramid again..

wakaka..

v went kim garry taking our lunch..

quite nice..

ate so many thing ther..

i totally full...

^^

after ate...

v shopping....

omg..i realy dun wan to shopping..

bt duno y ..

when i saw sum pretty clothes..pretty thing..

i cant control myself...

keep buy...=)

1 day...already uses rm 300...

..

soon lv shan!!!

warning...

u cant buy d....if nt...**makan rumput**

i stil wanna stay at there many days....

wakak..

aftertat..

v went keranajaya pick my dear wan yee..

she go ther meet us...

after pick her..

v oso go bk josee house..rest a while..

then...

3 of us..

go sunway pyramid ther..taking our dinner again...

wow...

summore..

SHISHA

wow...

a thing i wanna try long time ago..

finally..gt a chance to try..

feeling good...wakaakaka..

I M NT BAD GAL!!!

^^

then...abt 12 sumthing.

lrt already close...

then...v nid to pick wanyee back her hostel..at ...help hostel...

omg.....

v lost.....around 1 hour ...

jz found yee's hostel..

then...go bk home.

i was vyvy tired...

bt...i stil cn on9 now..wakka...

2mr go genting...excited..

i wan ply all ther thing...

wakakaa..

summore..wan buli 'kam yu lou '

wakakaa..u wait me la..

'sei kam yu lou'

tdy end...

(i wanna improve my english...)

try say..try write....

gambateh..^^

(pic wil upload on my facebook)hehe..

good nite....

SHIT FAMILY

NOBODY CN CONTROL ME!!

WAT THE FUCK PARENTS!!!

OMG..

I WONT TALK TO U GUYS FROM NOW....

FROM NOW..

I JZ GOT MYSELF..

NO FAMILY!!!

JZ WANT TO SAY.....

NOBODY CN CONTROL ME!!!!!!!

DUN FORCE TO TO LEAVE THIS HOME!!!

SHIT

oh my god...

damn pek chek now...

a guy....who owayz make me ki siao...make me angry...make me crazy on he ....

wat the fuck!!!
fuck him to the max!!
wat he want...

gv me the shit suprise!!!





fine!!!

tats all~

dun find me anymore~~

name zhou wen yit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
shit guy..useless guy..kongkam guy..
FUCK YOU

希望你快乐。。

你不断的挽回。。
我不断的拒绝。。。。

会不会是我太残忍了？
对不起。。。

我真的无法跟你一起。。
虽然。。心是痛的。。
可是。。
时间会冲淡一切。。

想着彼此的回忆。。
不舍。。。
可是。。已经在不能怎样了。。

哭也哭过了。。受伤也够了。。


你是一个好男人。。
如果你能改过。。
我欣赏你的专一。。因为。。不是一般男生。。能做到。。
如果你能改过。。
你将会是完美的男生。。

可是现在。。
我发现。。

单身最好！！！！anti hurt!!!!!

希望你能接受我们是朋友。。

T.T

我真心祝福你。。。幸福快乐。
你会找到更好的。。

对你有感觉哦。。。=）

.....jz slip 2hour....T.T

CANNOT SLEEP LAR........T.T

NOW IS MORNING 8 SUMTHING...

wat i am doin now???

update myblog.....

becos....

I CANT SLEEP WELL...

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wat i am thinking about????

i duno..T.T

then y i cant sleep well???

5am JZ SLEEP.....8am WAKE UP....

I JZ SLIP 2 HOUR!!!!!!

WTH!!!!

i wan sleep back..

bt i cant..

T.T

sumbody help...

duno y ..feel..pressure....my heart like full of sadness...

bt...wat i sad 4?

KI SIAO -ING.....

haiz....

好烦啊~~~

救命！！！！

崩溃。。。。

my life v my frenz...

me n yiyi..dear joue was bz ther~

this few day i keep hanging out v frenz..

find own entertaiment..

....

on9 at cafe...

ntg to do...

i like the feeling all frenz on9 2gether..

hiak hiak ^^

ytd abt 8 sumthing nite...

my dear joue...

ask me go D5 find them..

reached ther.

saw lim lee hui...work at ther..

wakkka..

get shock me...

she oso cn be waitress????..

blek..xd

hahaa...

i think she is a most violence waitress tat i meet...hahhhaa..

xd

then...me joue & yiyi..chting ther..

they talk abt langkawi trip...

this saturday...they all were going ther 4 1 day 1 nite..

they ask me go..

bt........

SORRY..MY DEAR ..

i cant go...becos...i no 'VITAMIN M'

wakaka..

plz ...4gv me...

& i oso wanna go k.l soon...

sorry..

u guys..enjoy ya..

muakcs..=D

after tat ..i go fetched my dear ji mui yun yun & swynne go d5 join us...

sis josee oso be ther....

bt after tat ..me n yun them..change place...

bali bali hai again...

~

ntg cn do at ther..

jz chit-chat v them....

& on9..

duno y ..recently so active on facebook...& msn....

bt great oso..cn knw more gossip xd hiak hiak...jkjk....

my life was too boring d...

owayz boom v sumfrenz in facebook & msn

ntg do..'luan zha'

a frenz..he is the most kap siao guy tat i meet..

om..i knw..he mayb wil c my blog...

i jz wan say.

**KAM YU LOU...U VYVY KAP SIAO...WAKAKAA...**

.......

then web cm v a frenz..

cryus yew...

wakaka..dmn stupid...

wait my bro ahtong on9...bt he bz in taiwan...miss him much xd

ntg to say d......

after bali..

v all oso go back our sweetz home d..

miss my mum so much...

SIS...

TNITE V HIGH AGAIN...WAKAKA...

HAPPY HOUR....^^

SPM RESULT

SPM RESULT IS COMING OUT ON THIS THURSDAY....

SHOULD I....AFTERNON JZ GO TAKE??
HAHA..

I CAN FEEL...MY RESULT SURE VYVYVYVYY......'GAI'

HAIZ....

SURE HAV MANY 9G...

OMG...

HAIZ.

GOD BLESSS ME..

last nite =)

face look chan....
















last 9...is our frenz xiao hei 's birthday..
he celebrate at banglow..
lol.

i was late...

i go ther already over 12am d..
wakkaa..
....

reached ther..
cn say ..all of them almost drank...
jz left me..n few gal..
wakkaa.

ANTI ALCOHOL...

bt they say..late must drink 3 cup of beer ...
ok..i jz drink 1..

cos..i wil drank if i drink many....

i knw control myself...
guai lui ..^^ hiak hiak..

inside banglow.
i sing 1 song...
erm..i wil train hard...

then....xiao hei n yan zhang owayz cal me drink..
i 'eng xiu'drink abit....

summore..they al drank ther..hahaha..
then...show time..
gt 3 'micheal jackson'dance at ther...wkakaaka.
zo xiao gao lat..

make me laugh on stop...
the 3 of micheal jackson is...XIAO HEI...YAN ZHANG & XIAO YI ZHANG....
hahhaaa...clap 4 them ^^

thn folow them go 'geng place'
wakakaa..
omg...mayb i din taked dinner..then drink beer...
omg...drank straight ther ...realy omg...

make many 'xia sui 'thing ther...

I SWEAR!!!!
NO MORE NEXT TIME!!!!!!!!!

WAKAKAA.....

erm..then i cnt tahan d...go eat kfc v yan zhang bro.....
then oso go home liao..

**my mum go china already...jz left me n daddy at home.
pity nia.. =(

happy hour...^^

this few day..i keep hanging out v my sister.

swynne...

yunyun...

& elain them..

damn happy when 2gether v them..

happy...

v go ebox...

v 5 gal get high in ther...wakkaka...

1st time v so ki siao ther..

miss tat moment....

wakaka....

thn.duno which day..i go perlis...4 jia li ' grandmum birth...

then..i go eat ther delicious curry porrige...damn love<3

4get which day d...i go rock cafe v my sister again..

lolz.

thn flamingo...wakka...

tdy...

i go...city & pcf v swynne.

go buy baby thing...high..haahah...

k..lazy write so much..

post pic.....

wakak..

2mr..wan make sushi v her again..

yummy^^

my mum is going china soon...

T.T..jz left me n daddy in house..

ke lian nia...T.T

miss mum....hahahaa....

go rock cafe v leng lui yun

v 4 gal..wakkaa

perlis..v jia li & yan lin...(2 cute gal..)

in perlis..li house..

next...

ebox v my sister..

tdy~~~

most pic....in....

my facebook.

(try to upload as fast as i cn)

shan-yz@hotmail.com

its hard to me..T.T

recently many many many sad thing around me...

1st ..

my buddys..chow tong & chee hian..
they was leave me..

i miss them...owayz..owayz...

i cry 4 them....becos i realy 'she bu de'

miss our memories much.....

appreciate...^^

2nd...

oso cos of my buddys..chow tong..
felt vyvyvyvyvyy sorry to him..
sumthing hapen ..bt nw oledi settle...

hope our frenz ship 4ever....

miss u guys forever & ever <3

3rd..

me n him....problem...

4th...

happy & sad becos of u...
dun wansay so much abt u...
jz wan to say ..i miss u like crazy now..

finally..settle..be back my self...=(

all memories...will keep inside my heart...

jz wan say ..i lv u ....ms u.....

thx u love me...

5th...

without contact..
'she bu de'

SUFFER

hope 'u' happy...


conclusion..

i sad..realy sad...
i cn feel ..i realy pain....

i hope to behappy...
bt its hard to me =(


**to..a frenz...jz nw heard sumthing..
gal....i cal she leng lui...
U REALY MINUNDERSTAND ME!!!!!!!!

I NT A SUCH GAL AS U THINK......

UR BF....I JZ CN SAY...V NTG HAPEN!!!

if u din trust...i oso ...duno wan say wat liao....**